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Wrote this up last night and then forgot to post it.

day 05 – a song that reminds me of someone

Chibi – MSI – Stupid Motherfucker

Onni – Nick Cave – Nature Boy
I remember him sending me this, among of a lot of other songs.

I’ve always been bad at admitting I listen to music, it’s always just been easier to say “nah” then “yeah I like that” I guess because if I say “yeah” then I feel I have to justify it. I’m trying to get over that though. (One of the reasons I’m doing this and sticking with the last.fm)

Bought a new DS, well, preowned, but new to me. It’s turquoise! Got Pokemon with it and whee it’s fun! Ended up getting it from Game, the DSes were £10 more expensive but Pokemon was free, so it came out to the same price, only I have a reward card there.

I like it so far, it’s Pokemon, not much more to say, but I like the way they’ve gone with this version.

muu muu

Ordered a block of air-dry modeling clay, and it arrived this morning so I spent all day downstairs playing with that. I’m rubbish at painting, rubbish at drawing, but I do ok with clay. I’ll take some photos of the little bits I made next time I can find some AA batteries. (To take the photos of the coins I had to steal the batteries out my mouse and that’s more hastle than it’s worth)

Today hasn’t been too bad, I slept in a draft last night and my neck has been sore all day, but all’s been ok apart from that, I still haven’t left the house. :p Still playing Dragon Age though and I’ve been playing a bit of Left4Dead with Tera and Chibi. Watched a film earlier, think it was called “Don’t look now.” I’d have to watch it again I think, to really get it, a lot of it went over my head. It was all very odd and surreal and I think it was made in 1970-something.

The weather’s really getting cold now and it’s getting dark at around 5pm. Doesn’t stop the kids playing out till 10pm, though, at least not yet. Grandma’s at home, but she’s depressed, her telly isn’t working and she won’t let me fix it, (I keep offering…) and she can’t see well enough to read. She says she’s just sitting around, not doing much and being depressed… I hope she gets better…

Happy birthday, Onni. <3

I miss you.

Long day

Went out shopping with mum today and I bought an oil burner, it’s pretty in an ugly sort of way, I’ll try and take a picture of it for tomorrow. I’ve been messing with the camera and it can do some shiny things when I press the right buttons. While we were out I also went to the post office and sent off my DS to the repair place. I hope it doesn’t get lost on the way, though. It feels like sending away a child or a loved pet, I worry for it’s safety and hope it writes lots of letters home, telling me what a lovely time it’s having and how it’s not binge drinking or having sex with strangers.

I cleaned out the hamsters yesterday, put all the bits of the cage in the dishwasher. It’s sad that Fluffy died, but at least I can use her cage to put the boys in while theirs in being cleaned. I also moved their cage out from where it was hidden in the corner behind the door, to next to my bed where Fluffys was. I can actually see them now, and they can see me! I looked around earlier for some reason, and there was just a little head poking out the sleeping-house, staring at me, watching my every move, but once he realised I’d seen him he hid again. I don’t think they’re gonna be properly handleable for a while yet, if ever, but at least they’re fun to watch.

I know I should work harder on taming them, even if just so I can health-check them every now and again, but why should I subject them to being prodded around when they’re perfectly happy as they are. Having them slightly feral also gives me an excuse not to get them out for my brother when he’s home, too. :p

Sigh. I’m still feeling very lost. I went through my playlist today and found this, it was the first song Onni ever sent me that really made an impact. That version there is strangely quiet, but it’s the only one with the video. I heard that and, I dunno, something clicked. Something changed in my head and suddenly there was all this different music I could actually listen to without getting bored and switching off. It still just feels so surreal that he’s gone. I keep seeing things he’d like to know, games I’d like to play with him. The news today has been full of the guy who says the Large Hadron Collider (Do I have to capitalise that?) is sabotaging itself from the future, that would have amused him.

Post #1 : The start of another life.

Saw a thing on the news this morning about them finding water on the moon, that’s quite interesting. Maybe we will have moon-bases one day after all. Anything is possible I guess.

Nothing much interesting happened today, the main dog seems to be getting on better with the puppy, but she gets into moods. One moment she’ll be washing her, the next, she’ll be trying to eat her and make her squeak by bashing her with her paw. The other dog is still terrified of her but hopefully that’ll change in time.

The pup has grown up so much in the short time we’ve had her, I think she’s practically doubled in size and her fur has gotten a lot lighter in colour. I really hated her at first, but I suppose I’m getting used to it now, she arrived at a really bad time on a really bad day, but you can’t blame her for that, blame the stupid woman who sold her to us, and wanted her money NOW instead of in three weeks time.

Meeting Tera was awesome, and Finland was so, so pretty, but I hate myself for everything that happened and for not taking a bigger role, for not getting over there sooner. I try and live by the motto “no regrets,”  but sometimes it’s hard. My emotions are all over the place at the moment. That’s why I’m updating this, maybe I can make some sense of everything if I type it all out here.

Onni, if you’re reading this, somehow, somewhere.

I miss you.